Again

I find myself sitting here, again, having my coffee & browsing blogs for motivation...

just sitting here...

Gonna go boil an egg and have an apple....

Hoping to allow myself to go for a walk today...trying not to talk myself out of it...

I'm hungry...

I can do this....one day at a time right?

That's how I succeeded in the past, convincing myself each and every day that I could do it...if only for that day...I'd wake up the next day and convince myself all over again...It worked...

I need to get in that mindset again...

Just realized I'm tired of hearing the word "again"...

7 Minutes...yay me

Took my daughter & a friend out shopping today...

McDonalds cheeseburger & lg fries for lunch...

Dinner was a cheeseburger on the grill w/ romaine & grilled onions...(I used lean beef, low fat cheese & a whole wheat bun...corn on cob, no butter

After sitting here browsing blogs, hoping to get some inspiration...I got up, got on the bike and took off...I rode around the block...coming uphill on the way back I just KNEW I'd have to walk it up...determined NOT to do that, I stopped, got my breath...(as people came walking by I held my breath so they wouldn't hear my wheezing & realize I couldn't freakin' breathe)...and continued home...

Was gonna go longer but couldn't...came home, caught my breath in the garage before coming in to the family...thought about a walk but decided no...did 60 crunches instead...That was probably about 7 min's worth...

I suppose it's a step right?

I wanna look DECENT...

Sitting here looking out my window...watching people doing their walking...telling myself I need to go...making excuses not too....I'm still sitting here...

If your reading this hoping to get some inspiration, you've probably come to the wrong place...I'm a procrastinator...I'm lazy...I know I need to exercise but I JUST can't make myself do it...

I use YOUR blogs for inspiration...maybe one day it'll work...

I think I'm depressed...or is that another excuse...

I wanna look DECENT in a bathing suit by June for a vacation with the whole family...One I haven't been on in YEARS...

Maybe I'll do some sit-ups?...

I dunno...thanks for listening...